END OF ERA.

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FLEET ILYA

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BEAM OF HOPE- RAY.

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RAY

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20:30 A NOTE FOR DECEMBER.

I knew it would take time.

I had this weird feeling as i opened my diary last night-

Sometimes this overwhelming feeling of reliving a person through words

is more real than the actual thought of having them near.

Keeping my numb hands warm with a past that gave me the destruction to reincarnate into something full in desire, a thousand mirrors can't reveal this pain

I still hold inside.

A morning for me- is like a struggle through what I hate most-

waking up from a night of dreams you thought existed.

Living in-between bed sheets that shaped the bodies of me.

And as desirable as it is to live the day- I still can't overcome the feeling of having

a knife of lies running down my spine.

And if my eyes don't look at your way anymore-

It's not because i don't care- It's because i don't feel.

And if my eyes don't open to daylight,

It's not because I'm looking to end life- It's because I don't feel.

Overwhelmed by the experience of missing him-

I calm myself with the strongest drug-

The addiction of processing words.

Words that were closures to love affairs.

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DARK CLOCKS OF HOPE.

You were afraid-

shame.

The sun is holding on longer than the moon.

This light you brush your body against

is devil's lips.

The moon you make love to with insomnia

is corrupt.

Following you into bed

was me missing you-

hypnotic.

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GOLDEN EAR.

Touching his skin during the night.

Sensing his heartbeat at dawn.

Waking his bones in the morning.

Never found.

Never found.

One day- with her

Never found.

Happiness never found.

No she doesn't cry-

All around you.

Happiness.

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Ὕπνος.

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PROTECTORS OF NOVEMBER.

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ISIS HEAL THIS SICKNESS OF MIND.

i lied-

It’s not just loneliness between you and I.

It's the nakedness of the moment scented to haunt me at night.

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NOW.

POURING OVER ME.

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THE DOWN COME.

She knows the feeling of letting go.

She holds her lover by his hand,

gently pulling him closer to her.

She stares straight to her bed-

In that moment of contemplation,

he felt as if she had departed for a lifetime.

In a moment of awakening

he waits for her to move her lips-

She seemed paralyzed

her heart wasn't there.

She withdrew her desires right in front of her-

looking at her bed in a different perspective,

where she lay her misplaced heart.

Looking at her organ sleep,

She moves for the first time-

Loosing the grip of her lovers hand,

she speaks:

" this is where I was born"

The grip is completely lost.

She is completely gone.

Her lover in awe stands watching her bed-

the organ pumping the blood

which will drown him to death.

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SWALLOW ME FULL MOON.

Holding my chest against the wall

I expel this anxiety which accelerates my heartbeat.

The echo of my organs humming to you,

this desire-

this impotence to believe that you didn't care,

this emerging urge to have you near.

I loose my breath at this time of the night,

when the bed speaks to me so cold-

coming into her so empty-

fills an obscure hole in my heart,

marking a mystical moon at night.

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I DISCOVERED AS I PASSED BY YOU.

Woman speaks,

She touches the male sky.

The blinding light of his ego

feeds her imagination.

Woman speaks,

Winds that blow her hair in her eyes.

Reaching a sky with no dimension,

fatigue her body left on the border of real life.

Woman speak.

Your presence was thin as air,

lost in a world of angels that believed there was a light.

A light in your personified skies.

THE FEMALE ZOO