Sunday, December 27, 2009

END OF ERA.





THE FEMALE ZOO

Sunday, December 20, 2009

FLEET ILYA










THE FEMALE ZOO

Friday, December 18, 2009

BEAM OF HOPE- RAY.



THE FEMALE ZOO

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

RAY

THE FEMALE ZOO

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

20:30 A NOTE FOR DECEMBER.



I knew it would take time.
I had this weird feeling as i opened my diary last night-
Sometimes this overwhelming feeling of reliving a person through words
is more real than the actual thought of having them near.

Keeping my numb hands warm with a past that gave me the destruction to reincarnate into something full in desire, a thousand mirrors can't reveal this pain
I still hold inside.

A morning for me- is like a struggle through what I hate most-
waking up from a night of dreams you thought existed.
Living in-between bed sheets that shaped the bodies of me.

And as desirable as it is to live the day- I still can't overcome the feeling of having
a knife of lies running down my spine.

And if my eyes don't look at your way anymore-
It's not because i don't care- It's because i don't feel.

And if my eyes don't open to daylight,
It's not because I'm looking to end life- It's because I don't feel.

Overwhelmed by the experience of missing him-
I calm myself with the strongest drug-
The addiction of processing words.
Words that were closures to love affairs.

THE FEMALE ZOO

Sunday, December 13, 2009

DARK CLOCKS OF HOPE.



You were afraid-
shame.
The sun is holding on longer than the moon.
This light you brush your body against
is devil's lips.
The moon you make love to with insomnia
is corrupt.
Following you into bed
was me missing you-
hypnotic.

THE FEMALE ZOO




Friday, December 11, 2009

GOLDEN EAR.


Touching his skin during the night.
Sensing his heartbeat at dawn.
Waking his bones in the morning.
Never found.
Never found.
One day- with her
Never found.
Happiness never found.
No she doesn't cry-
All around you.
Happiness.

THE FEMALE ZOO

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Ὕπνος.


THE FEMALE ZOO

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Monday, December 7, 2009

ISIS HEAL THIS SICKNESS OF MIND.

i lied-
It’s not just loneliness between you and I.
It's the nakedness of the moment scented to haunt me at night.

THE FEMALE ZOO

NOW.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

POURING OVER ME.




THE FEMALE ZOO

Thursday, December 3, 2009

THE DOWN COME.



She knows the feeling of letting go.

She holds her lover by his hand,
gently pulling him closer to her.

She stares straight to her bed-
In that moment of contemplation,
he felt as if she had departed for a lifetime.

In a moment of awakening
he waits for her to move her lips-
She seemed paralyzed
her heart wasn't there.

She withdrew her desires right in front of her-
looking at her bed in a different perspective,
where she lay her misplaced heart.

Looking at her organ sleep,

She moves for the first time-
Loosing the grip of her lovers hand,

she speaks:

" this is where I was born"


The grip is completely lost.
She is completely gone.

Her lover in awe stands watching her bed-
the organ pumping the blood
which will drown him to death.

THE FEMALE ZOO

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

SWALLOW ME FULL MOON.


Holding my chest against the wall
I expel this anxiety which accelerates my heartbeat.
The echo of my organs humming to you,
this desire-
this impotence to believe that you didn't care,
this emerging urge to have you near.
I loose my breath at this time of the night,
when the bed speaks to me so cold-
coming into her so empty-
fills an obscure hole in my heart,
marking a mystical moon at night.

THE FEMALE ZOO

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

I DISCOVERED AS I PASSED BY YOU.


Woman speaks,
She touches the male sky.
The blinding light of his ego
feeds her imagination.

Woman speaks,
Winds that blow her hair in her eyes.
Reaching a sky with no dimension,
fatigue her body left on the border of real life.

Woman speak.

Your presence was thin as air,
lost in a world of angels that believed there was a light.
A light in your personified skies.


THE FEMALE ZOO

Monday, November 30, 2009

ABSTRACT IN EXPRESSION.



In concentration she can almost contemplate something close,
a certain human odor,
which has never lied so close to her before.

This stranger keeps on appearing,
so empty of affection.

This is Vitality.
She doesn't need the light.

THE FEMALE ZOO

Saturday, November 28, 2009

NUDE STREAMS.


Laying still,
wanting to be with her.
Staying away from her-
the unreal.
A special thing for you,
is finding her aside,
finding her moving,
past the dark continent of dreams and fantasies.

THE FEMALE ZOO

Friday, November 27, 2009

LILITH LYING NEXT TO ME IN BED.


3.15 insomnia.
4.45- insomnia.
6.00-insomnia.

The hours without.


THE FEMALE ZOO.