Tuesday, December 30, 2008


It wasn't pleasant. 
The pounding images of this morning- chaos.
Somewhere in between my pillow and mind.
30 before rise.
the dream that never awakens.
The house door kept on opening.
the noise of a suitcase out in the corridor. 
the violent touch of a stranger in my bed. 
1 second later, im outside on the streets talking to you, 
asking you, if you will come back- 
Due to an early rise you wont reappear tonight.
I didnt feel hot nor cold. 
strange enough as i walked back to my bed.
2 second back, i rise from my bed, 
opening the door of my room and stepping into the corridor,
where the noise echos of suitcases being dragged. 
my dearest friend, looks at me right in my eyes. 
Long blonde hair. 
i hold her. 
help me , im dreaming, i cant wake up.
pulling myself back into deep sleep. 
the snooze, the classical music we awaken to. 
keeps on happening. 
suddenly your lying next to me when you had just left. 
im confused about you. 
you touch my eyes, close  and sleep. 
the classical snooze.
the chaos. 

the female zoo

Saturday, December 27, 2008


inferno speak. 
sudden changes in the color of your eyes. 
ive been having constant nightmares.
 my moon is changing house.
so strange. 
no message no symbols. 
just noise from underneath. 

the female zoo

Friday, December 26, 2008


the female zoo

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Monday, December 22, 2008

Friday, December 19, 2008


the monotonous sounds of early risings. 
the loosened fragile grips.
soft absent skin.
closed traveling eyes.
dark pale pink lip.
tangled mazes of long hair. 
slow arm and feet movements.
breathing for the first time after dreams.
the rise of human contact odor, 
reminds me,
 to never be awake.

the female zoo

Tuesday, December 16, 2008


the female zoo

Monday, December 15, 2008


my wrists hurt 
im screaming underneath it all.
sick of sitting on the edge.
everything you do gently falling into me.

this is how i am going to describe it: 

Im lying on a flat surface.
my skin stuck to the cotton sheets.
my stomach stretched almost drawing an imaginary moon.
something beautiful punching inside me. 
my wrists hurt.
im screaming underneath it all.
your fluid is multiplying everything inside me.
my eyes are dying out.
your eyes are getting bigger.
water flowing in my veins.
beeping noises of a creation.
getting faster.
my heartbeat beating faster.
suddenly a figure emerges from underneath.
im awakend by noise.
im awakend by chaos of creation.
last moment your holding onto my hand tight.
heartbeat explodes into two.
the lights turn bright.
the cord pulls tight.
rabbits running in circles around me. 

the female zoo

Friday, December 12, 2008


You enjoy being left alone.
When imagination strikes most.
Your ability to create an illusion of it. 
How you would birth its existence. 
By only grasping those moments you laid naked. 
Your sleepless accelerated mind.
Your finding yourself in a relationship with your mind left alone aside. 
Through my older eyes. 
Its set to see me last your life. 
You spend to much time with it on your mind.
You can no longer see it.
love it. 
want it. 
physically you were always unaware.
You will walk alone happy in blind.
drunken till a state of momentary delight.

the female zoo


the female zoo

Thursday, December 11, 2008



Its hard to wait for someone to analyze your state of mind. 
Giving away your human fluid. 
the lack of comprehension to pain.
the lack of communication between body and knowledge. 
Vulnerability to a stranger taking DNA from you.
Rooted chaos of unknown.
I awake next to 
Science saves
written across your wrist. 

the female zoo

Tuesday, December 9, 2008


this is how you took my life. 

the female zoo

Tuesday, December 2, 2008


the female zoo


i pulled your smell out from the film canister. 
spread it all over my wrists. 
overdosing in seeing you. 

the female zoo

Monday, December 1, 2008


too many lights out. 
 last glance away.
grace flows out of your hands.
harmony that you provide. 
lips of lovers collide.
a morning in a gown pure white.
 last spoken words of delight.
 aura you carry.
kill with kindness.
the female zoo

Friday, November 28, 2008