i walk through my walls
finding myself in complete hollowness
cutting myself on sharp edges.
turning pale white
i keep on going, because its like a lie.
makes me feel good
i have learnt the subtle pain
i adapt to recognize.
so the sun comes out
but not in my window.
everyone sees in color
cutting myself on life
i see black.
i promise im sane.
i only intoxicate with myself.
because i feel secure
when we have sex.
because i feel
when i stretch to find you here.
down there i recognize
a last ovulation.
because i feel nouveau.
braiding my hair before i sleep.
i recognize the smell of your first words.
i no longer sit here.
because i feel the voyage of gone.
because life is myself in EMPRESS BALLON.
the female zoo
