FLEET ILYA

THE FEMALE ZOO

BEAM OF HOPE- RAY.

THE FEMALE ZOO

RAY

THE FEMALE ZOO

20:30 A NOTE FOR DECEMBER.

I knew it would take time.

I had this weird feeling as i opened my diary last night-

Sometimes this overwhelming feeling of reliving a person through words

is more real than the actual thought of having them near.

Keeping my numb hands warm with a past that gave me the destruction to reincarnate into something full in desire, a thousand mirrors can't reveal this pain

I still hold inside.

A morning for me- is like a struggle through what I hate most-

waking up from a night of dreams you thought existed.

Living in-between bed sheets that shaped the bodies of me.

And as desirable as it is to live the day- I still can't overcome the feeling of having

a knife of lies running down my spine.

And if my eyes don't look at your way anymore-

It's not because i don't care- It's because i don't feel.

And if my eyes don't open to daylight,

It's not because I'm looking to end life- It's because I don't feel.

Overwhelmed by the experience of missing him-

I calm myself with the strongest drug-

The addiction of processing words.

Words that were closures to love affairs.

THE FEMALE ZOO

DARK CLOCKS OF HOPE.

You were afraid-

shame.

The sun is holding on longer than the moon.

This light you brush your body against

is devil's lips.

The moon you make love to with insomnia

is corrupt.

Following you into bed

was me missing you-

hypnotic.

THE FEMALE ZOO

GOLDEN EAR.

Touching his skin during the night.

Sensing his heartbeat at dawn.

Waking his bones in the morning.

Never found.

Never found.

One day- with her

Never found.

Happiness never found.

No she doesn't cry-

All around you.

Happiness.

THE FEMALE ZOO

Ὕπνος.

THE FEMALE ZOO